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Dec. 1st, 2009 @ 04:29 am (no subject)
.....why cant i ever just sleep through the night?
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Nov. 10th, 2009 @ 01:28 pm (no subject)
theres no reason for me anymore.
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Oct. 2nd, 2009 @ 11:38 am (no subject)
a wise old owl lived in an oak/ the more he saw the less he spoke/ he less he spoke the more he heard. why can't we all be like this wise old bird?


i leave you with that.


/fish
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Sep. 28th, 2009 @ 06:21 pm (no subject)
im better off on my own. i cant fake it any more.
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Aug. 17th, 2009 @ 10:28 pm (no subject)
i fucking hate methadone.
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Aug. 17th, 2009 @ 04:16 pm (no subject)
do you ever look at your life....
and wonder where the fuck half of it went?

....because seriously... where the fuck am i?
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Jul. 4th, 2009 @ 12:47 pm We;re comin' out of our shells!!!!
Current Music: teenage mutant ninja turtles - pizza power
please tell me i'm not the only one lame enough to remember this...







....even though i'm sure , even if i'm not the only one lame enough to remember it, that i'm still the only one lame enough to have rewatched the whole thing. not just these two videos... i mean.. the whole concert. i used to have it on tape, complete with 'behind the scenes' footage and whatnot. god the 90s were bad. and yet so good.


pizza power can be delivered to your door. remember that.
/fish
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Jun. 18th, 2009 @ 02:40 pm (no subject)
we had a grease fire in the oven last night.

funniest. shit. ever.

i mean... after we put out the flames, that is...

end of story.
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Apr. 28th, 2009 @ 04:31 pm even as i left florida (far enough... far enough wasn't far enough)
Although we often wondered
It was no thing of wonder
The shit that flew from our minds
While wearing stains of fresh fruit
And riding on shoes of horse glue
On this ridiculous climb
With great tunnel vision
We built ourselves a mission
To ride our motives design
Oh, what a vague description
Of what we have been missing
So why would anyone try?

It was always worth it
That's the part I seem to hide
And the busy ant empire
Put up the closing sign

I wasn't always cargo
I was once kind of my own
I guess I'll pack up my mind
It took so much effort
Not to make an effort
Oh, what a flawless design

It was always worth it
That's the part I seem to hide
And the busy ant empire
Put up the closing sign

Even as I left Florida

It was always worth it
That's the part I seem to hide
And the busy ant empire
Was always a beehive
It was always worth it
That's the part I seem to hide

Even as I left Florida
Far enough, far enough
Wasn't far enough
Couldn't quite seem to escape myself
Far enough, far enough
Far from Florida
We were all drowsing in cruise control
Far enough, far enough
Wasn't far enough

I stood on my heart's porch thinking
"Oh my God, I'll probably have to carry this whole load"
I couldn't remember if I tried
I couldn't remember if I took my brain out
Threw it so directly at the goal
I couldn't remember if I
I could have my mind erased
And still not know exactly what I don't already know

Even as I left Florida
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Feb. 5th, 2009 @ 10:07 am you may be a victim of software counterfieiting ;D
Haha.

i love how windows always comes up with this pop-up at the bottom of my screen that says
"YOU MAY BE A VICTIM OF SOFTWARE COUNTERFEITING/ this copy of windows did not pass genuine windows validation; Click here to learn how to correct this problem" ... and when you click it it tries to list you all the reasons why you should pay them $249 dollars, lol.

::cracks up:: No, WINxp, actually, YOOOOUUUUUU may be a victim of software counterfieting...

i, on the other hand, am not a victim; i am quite happy with my bootlegged copy and getting my operating system for free. and i have no interest in paying you 249 dollars. thanks for the concern though ;D

/fishy
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Oct. 4th, 2008 @ 04:44 am PHOTOPOST (b): Robin and Bella duel over a scrap of wood
i love how german shepherds play-fight. robin could never do this before because most dogs he ends up playing with are too much smaller than he is.

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dueling dogs

robin and bella- the scrap-of-wood wars! )


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iz gun' be OK, buddy. everything gunna be ok.


/fishy
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Sep. 2nd, 2008 @ 04:30 pm VIDEO-post: robin and bella



bella taunts robin, who goes to great lengths to protect his frisbee.


/fishy
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Jul. 20th, 2008 @ 02:51 am VIDEOPOST: robin the wonder dog!
i'm constantly bragging about my white shepherd robin and how wonderful he is, so now you all get to see him in action. putting robin through his 'routine'. his personal little 3-ring circus act if you will. it certainly is a spectacle to watch such a beautiful, intelligent, AND sweet little animal.

he gives kisses.

AND he prances.

watch it.

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Jun. 16th, 2008 @ 09:06 am Robin Pic Post #1
Current Music: saxomaphone
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my giant goof-ball puppy. we call him a polar bear.



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you will notice throughout the course of this post that my dog is virtually OBSESSED with FRISBEE. any frisbee. any color. if its circular and looks like a flying pancake- he will play with it for hours on end, bringing it back and shoving it in your face and will not stop unless and until you take the damn thing away and put it on top of the refridgerator. then, and even then, he may go out in the yard and dig up another one and come trotting back with it and then you start all over.

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running, jumping, catching it in his mouth

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proud puppy ;D

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anthony puppy-playing with my dog. anthony is like robins big brother- they're good friends and he tags along after him and its adorable.

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doing the perfect 'german shepherd stance' thing as anthony plays geetar in the background.

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anthony on guitar

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robin, anthony, and noelle...chillin'

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ant and robin chillaxin


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ha ha ha you'll never take me alive!

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chillin on the grass.... with his frisbee under his paw. dont take that look for relaxation- he's ready and rarin' to go if anyone takes a step towards him and he thinks you're after the dreaded frisbee of doom.

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now, watch as random people try to finagle the Frisbee from my dogs mouth:

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nice tactic... not going to work.

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come play with me!

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noelle tries to get the frizbee, take 2.

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robin is clearly winning

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noelle gives up

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and robin settles down happily under the table with his frisbee

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robin standing all proud of himself with his frisbee between his toes

/fish
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Jun. 6th, 2008 @ 03:12 am robin's baby pictures!
Current Location: my room
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at my grandma's farms - watching the chickens. (one of which is now my chicken- aristotle) he doesnt try to get them or hurt them- he just likes to sit or lay down and watch them.


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chewing on his toy basket. when he was a little baby we had a basket for all his toys and we taught him the names of all his toys and we'd put them all in the basket and tell him which one to get and he'd go get it. and when we were done playing we'd say "robin, put your toys away" and he'd put them away one by one. he was a crazy-smart dog even since puppyhood. we havent done that in a while though- because at some point he ate his basket so now his toys are mostly scattered around my bedroom and the rest of the house.

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he's such a little romancer.. (with the flower in his mouth.)

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my mom making him 'sit' @ 12 wks old

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giving grammy his paw

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oh the cute! german sheps. have to chew and use their jaw muscle alot when they're young in order to get their ears to stand up tall. hence why shepherds are usually very bitey puppys and are known for leaving a path of destruction when thy're little. (though robin was strangely good about this and left very little damage in regards to things that werent his- he would kill and tear apart his own toys adn things, but most of our stuff was left intact). but both of robins ears went up and then one flopped back down. so for a while he looked like a total goofball and i couldnt look at him without giggling.

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we gave him my old giant neft frisbee cause it was half broken- and he proceeeded to make it fully broken.

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when we were left with the ring i took it and was trying to make him jump through hoops like a circus dog but he wouldnt do it. then he went and sat inside the circle.

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making him sit for his ball

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giving paw for his ball - such an awkward little boy

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retrieving his tennis ball

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robin says "yummy! dirt!"

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lounging in a hole

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robin wobbling over to the camera. he was so clumsy on his feet back then. he was always wobbling around and tipping over.

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playing peek-a-boo!

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my friend mike (anthonys cousin/ gay, head-givin' mike) making a very tiny 10wk old robin sit. we basically had everyone he came in contact with enforce his training so that he would be well socialized and used to listening to a variety of people

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he looks possessed by his tennis ball


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my dog has been eating raw meat from the time he was weaned from his mother. he'll chew up that whole bone and all -so theres not a scrap or crumb left.

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i love watching my dog eat. its like watching the discovery/national geographic channel.

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*CHOMP CHOMP CHOMP!*
and i raised his such that i handfeed him his food so even nowadays i would be able to reach my hand in his mouth and take that whole raw meat-bone out of his mouth WHILE hes eating.

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my lanky little teenager, about 5 months or so

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bringing me a bucket as we were carrying gravel back and forth during one of our NH stays.

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tied to a tree, chilling on the lawn in NH

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growing up to be a big beautiful boy

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this is what he looks like when he goes into 'protective mode'. he does his 'roo-ruh roo rooooo!" bark and we had to hold him back from chasing one of the neighbors out of the yard

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pee-peeing behind the lamppost. FUNNIEST PICTURE EVER!
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Jun. 6th, 2008 @ 01:27 am (no subject)
Current Location: my room
robin is awefully whiney tonight. i dont understand whats wrong with him. he's usually very calm and quiet but i had him out in his kennel tonight because Alaskan Rob's girlfriend kicked him out, so he's staying here but he's horribly afraid of big dogs. so robin was out in his kennel but of course he's too smart for his own good and knows how to flip the latch- so he flipped the latch and ten minutes later he was at my front slider door. of course he didnt bother with the back heavy-door. he went all the way around the house to my front slider so that i'd be sure to see him and his cuteness and say "alright, fiiiiine, robin, come on in you goofball." so i let him in and he came and sat on my feet and was licking my toes and making these whimpery sounds then he's get up and pace around in a circle doing that high-pitched whine of his and then sit back down on my feet whimpery-licking my toes again. strange. the worms are in full force tonight though so im figureing maybe he's just trying to protect me.

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(robin at around 14 wks. on the couch-bed)

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(robin at around 5 mo. old on the couch-bed)

i folded down out the pullout couch-bed and let robin up on it and just gave him a huge lamb-leg bone to chew on. he loves my pullout- when he was a little puppy we used to cuddle on it so i think its very familiar to him. its the only place where i can leave him and he'll stay put and wont try to follow me. probably because mine and his scent are already so much ingrained in the futon and he associates it with all the puppy love cuddles. its only across the room but at least he's not right under my feet scaring the shit out of Rob.
poor alaskan rob. i wish the first time he met robin wasnt with him acting so weird cause i'm trying to show rob not to be afraid of big dogs. in a little while once robin settles down (he's alraedy chomping away on his bone and seems a lot better) im going to call him over and make him give Rob kisses and show him how sweet a dog he (and other big dogs) can be.

i dont know why i bothered putting him in the kennel. he never stays in it. its funny how true it is about service dogs and the way that you raise them- its like a codependent relationship. he's just as uncomfortable without me as i am without him. i want- need- to always have him around because he is like a grounding force. i know he's real. in those moments where im not sure what is or isnt- in those horrible uncomfortable panic-stricken moments- he'll push his nose into my side or put his head in my lap and remind me that .. it doesnt matter. and he'll just make me feel better by existing. and i do the same thing for him. he hates to be alone and he never had been- he's ALWAYS with me- just about every minute of every day and as such since the day i brought him home. so for him to be left alone he gets very uncomfortable and wants to be right under my feet all the time. if i leave him alone anywhere he WILL find a way to escape and i'll find him in my bed or at my back door or he'll have climbed through an open window and i'll find him in a room of my house that the door was shut so he got into the house but couldnt get out of the room. its great to be loved THAT much by your dog. ;D

nostalgic puppy love - (robin as a puppy) )

i'm about the go make another whole post full of the rest of robin's baby-pictures because he was (and still is) so fucking adorable. but last year he was FUZZY and adorable.. which is 10x better.

/fishy
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May. 29th, 2008 @ 09:35 am (no subject)
at this point in my life i figure pretty much anything i say or do is taken out of context because my life and the situations that surround me is pretty much ALL withtin a certain context that nobody else has ever expereinced.

that goes for a lot of people actually, the simple truth of it is that a lot of people just dont realize it as they get caught up in "biased" reality. a reality of facts and concrete truth when everything is most certainly flimsy and whimsical.


they creeate a law adn we all drop down a level to fall under it in a straight line.

the fight for equality is an unfortunate one and taking some pretty heavy casualties.

i suppose my dissent into madness could be compared to "fleeing the country" or some other ridiculous metaphor but really there is no madness involved. its a perfectly sane, healthy, enlightenment of though.

you guys are the mad ones. all of you.

/fish
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May. 25th, 2008 @ 04:36 am i get to cuddle with TWO german shepherds ! :D.
i need to name the new puppy

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any suggestions of names for a female black/brown german shepherd pup (shes about 8 or 9 weeks old currently) would be appreciated.

what happened was i came back to stuart to crash at marks because i heard rumors of my family trying to serve me a 302- so the other day i'm at marks and he and i were walking around stuart and on our way back- right in the alley behind confusion corner (like, around where the lyric theatre, natures way, osceola, etc) are we found a stray mom-shepherd and 4 puppy's huddled up in the corner. the mom was on edge and it took a lot of food and coaxing to get near her but we stayed with her for a while kinda inching our way closer and giving her food and she finally warmed up a little bit- enough to get a good look at her and she was in rough shape. we think she had been either beaten severely or hit by a car. she couldn't move very well and the pups were just there whimpering and climbing all over her and tearing up the trashbags of the local businessness around the other side of the building.

so long story short, after we were able to get NEAR the damn dog, we tied a string/twine rope around the puppy's necks and i picked up the mom and we switched off walking the pups and carrying the injured mom down to the humane society which LUCKILY isnt too far from confusion/dts. the people at the humane society said they were about 8wks old and should be weaned by now anyway, so they were probably going to put the pups in foster familys and try to tend to the mom (who was in rough shape physically and mentally) and see how it goes. (mark and i are going to go back and check up on her and make sure she's okay) but we decided to take one of the pups home and i'm not sure if we're going to keep her or just foster her yet.

i was worried at first because Robin who has never seen a puppy not counting when he was one himself was kinda freaking out at first- barking his head off and he started to chase the little one and kinda crinkled his nose and showed his teeth to her and i had to separate them. i think he was pretty much just confused as fuck and didnt even know it was another dog as puppys have no scent- so he was just like "what is this strange animal my daddy keeps cuddling that isnt me?!" ... but just as i was getting to the point of thinking it wasnt going to work out and i'd have to find someone else to take care of the baby-puppy i let Robin back out and told him to calm down and whatnot and gave him lots of love and play so he wouldnt get jealous and he was all happy and sweet. he's a true german shepherd in that even though he is real submissive to me, he also knows that he wants to be "alpha dog" and he is deserving of the utmost attention and he gets really upset if thats not how things seem to be going. he does the same thing with the cat. he doesnt try to hurt the cats, but when i pet them he gets all upset and runs at me barking and pushes himself in-between me and the kitty so he's the only one getting attention.

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my dog is an attention-whore.

but after that episode he sniffed her up and down for over an hour and was fine and now she's like his little baby sister. he brings her his toys and drops them at her feet and lets her play with them... he doesnt even let ME play with his frisbee - i have to fight him for it- and little baby-puppy is over there chewing and slobbering all over it and he doesnt care. and he was doing the wolf thing where when i gave him his breakfast this morning - he eats raw meat and he ate the majority of it and left her a little piece but he chewed up the bones so they were soft and then dropped it in front of her and watched while she ate it. its the sweetest goddamn thing ever to watch these two -- the giant white shepherd with the tiny little brown-black one.

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and Robin is actually INCREDIBLY tolerant of her because now she's the one starting all the scuffles. Robin wasnt like that when he was a pup, he was real mellow (which is the only thing that kinda worries me as i can already tell this pup is going to be a real firecracker of a dog when she grows up-) shes jumping on Robin's back- climbing on his face and chewing on his ears, hanging onto his back by her teeth and tearing out tufts of his fur... and Robin of course being the mellow little sweetheart that he is doesnt even do a damn thing about it he just tilts his head (her being on top of his head) or shifts his weight and lets her roll off of him or gently pushes her over with his paw and then she rolls over on her back in submissive gesture like "okay fine, youre bigger, please dont hurt me" and Robin sits down and she hops up and goes back to attacking his face.

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/fish
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May. 23rd, 2008 @ 07:35 pm new puppy!?
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robin has a new baby sister.

ill explain later.
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May. 7th, 2008 @ 11:24 pm (no subject)
dear fish
stop being such a social dipshit and/or asshole and get your act together.
you're running out of people willing to tolerate your bullshit.

seriously.

enough.


sincerely
yourself.



in other news: its really fucking hot in africa.


/fish
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Apr. 13th, 2008 @ 02:09 am Robin the wonder puppy!
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a very cute sleepy robin.

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love me.

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my beautiful boyfriend nothing got a cute little pocket beagle puppy that he named Loki. personally i love animals and beagles especially i've always had an affinity for so i'm really happy for him. if i hadnt gotten Robin, my german shepherd, i probably would have gone with a beagle as they're such adorable, well mannered little dogs. but my purpose in getting a dog was, not much unlike Nothing, for the purpose of having a service dog. back when i had schism, my cocker spaniel mix who was killed, we were talking about getting a service dog certification for him but we werent sure that we would be able to because Schism was way too much of an overprotective little animal. which you'd think would be good in a service dog, but if someone was around and he was there he wouldnt let them go near me, you couldnt pet him if he was around me, etc. he was just way obsessed with me.
i miss Schism alot... he was a great dog and i loved him but to have him as a dog that would be with me all the time wouldnt have worked out. weird little blessing-in-disguises i guess, however unfortunate it may be. so id always been fond of beagles but i knew when i was going to get a new dog that we would be doing the service dog thing and really i know very little about the beagles as far as their trainability and whatnot, so we went with the german shepherd. which was also a familiarity thing. when i was little we had a beautiful white shepherd named Taylor and then of course my girl Moxy who was Taylors daughter and those were my first two experiences with dogs, they were both amazingly beautiful sweet animals and i guess now having a White shepherd Robin as a therapy dog its like... very comfortable and familiar as well as knowing how to train them and that shepherds are VERY smart dogs.
so looking at all the pictures of Nothing's cute little beaglet made me jealous, but also very thankful and proud of my own little service dog Robin.
he has a whole little repertoire of 'tricks' and things he does that pretty much make him one of the most amazing animals ever. he "touches" which is like a little circus trick where you point somewhere and he goes and nudges wherever you're pointing with his nose, he gives big cute little puppy kisses on command, stands up on his back paws like a little bunnyrabbit and kisses, wakes me up by pulling my blankets off of me if i sleep past a specific time cause its not healthy for me to sleep all day which i would do if he let me, lol... and theres some other stuff as well as the basic sit/down/stay/come/etc. he's one of the most well-trained dogs ive had as well and i did pretty much all of the training myself apart from his p.SD certification training class thing that i did WITH him but the trainer there showed me hands on some of the training for that. but Robin is a lot different than Schism and he comes with me EVERYWHERE- to work, on the town, when i travel, he's even coming with me to africa, so he's going to be a very worldly beast of a dog. and he's very well tempered, doesnt fright or jump or bark at other dogs, and absolutely LOVES people- all people, especially new people, which is actually weird for a sheperd because usually german shepherds are very standoffish and need people to be almost sort of 'initiated' into their life for them to accept them as one of the pack persay. robin loves me and it by my side all day in and out, but thats not to say his personality is that of a 'one man dog' - he loves everybody, if he's off the leash and someone new comes around he'll like... CHARGE THEM barking like crazy and its funny when people dont know better and just see this giant german shepherd that looks like a wolf charging at them but then once he gets close to you he puts his ears down and waggles his little butt over to you and he HAS to get you a gift- he runs and picks up the first thing he sees on the ground and circles around and around you whining and whimpering until you pet him and take whatever is in his mouth that he's giving you. and then he just attack you with kisses. cutest greeting ever. sometimes i leave my house without him just so that i can come back in a a few minutes and get one of his cute little robin-gift greetings.
Robin and Loki should become friends ;D
thats all i have to say about that.... now go admire 50 million pictures of my goofball puppy.

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touch!

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my very cute wake up call ;D

Robin-puppy! )

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the sweetest puppy in the world.

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goodnight puppy.

/fishy
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Mar. 18th, 2008 @ 11:56 am (no subject)
theres nothing really worth doing. saying. or otherwise. i'm not thrilled with what ive become nd i dont want to listen to it anymore. but i'm heading out the the art store to pick up some paint. that i'll probably be doing that and listening to music for most of the day. maaybe a distraction, maybe a means to an end. ::shrug:: doesnt really much matter anyhow.
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Mar. 13th, 2008 @ 07:14 pm (no subject)

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/fish
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Mar. 13th, 2008 @ 01:13 am and the piano sounds like a carnival! and the microphone smells like a beer. ......
Current Mood: awake
Current Music: billy joel- piano man
[and they sit at the bar and put bread in my jar and say "man, what are you doin' here?".....]


i dont usually do these silly meme things, but this one is open-ended enough to be interesting and probably worth it.


stolen from the lovely sara/[info]gothhippiegrrl

Everyone has things they blog about. Everyone has things they don't blog about. Challenge me out of my comfort zone by telling me something I don't blog about, but you'd like to hear about, and I'll write a post about it. Ask for anything: latest movie watched, last book read, political leanings, thoughts on yaoi, favorite type of underwear, graphic techniques, etc. Repost in your own journal so that we can all learn more about each other.


play along with me, and i'll attempt to come up with something for you as well.

/fishy
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Mar. 4th, 2008 @ 03:25 am PHOTOPOST #2: where we buy and we sell and we sell all our crap to eachother...
i've always been pretty handy so recently i started building things to sell for extra cash. ive done mostly custom entertainment center/ tv unit type things, storage shelving, etc, but i've also done some chairs, benches, tables, and i just finished a padded rocking chair that i sewed up and made a pretty nifty cushion for it as well.
ive been making nearly a grand a piece on the entertainment centers and the last one i did i made exactly a grand but with all the effort it took to get it out of my garage and into someone elses house it was almost not worth the effort.

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..and all the apostles, they're sittin' in swings sayin' they'd sell of your soul for a set of new rings and those sandals with the style of the straps that cling best to the era.... )

/fish
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Mar. 3rd, 2008 @ 04:17 am (no subject)
oh, whats the use?
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Feb. 27th, 2008 @ 05:01 pm human guitars
Current Music: modest mouse - tundra-desert
i feel like something inside of me is broken and instead of trying to fix it i'm just going to have fun smashing myself to pieces.

.fish
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Feb. 27th, 2008 @ 12:28 pm (no subject)
weird night. i am more or maybe less human for it.
only the changing of the frequencies will tell.
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Feb. 20th, 2008 @ 01:35 pm a lifelong walk to the same exact spot
becca is at work.
i am neglecting all responsibilities. the dog has been in his kennel most of the day and liliamara is jumping around my bedroom. i dont remember if i made either of them breakfast- and isnt it probably time for lunch? i'm in bed. watching. so long as she doesnt break her face on a table or some such thing does that mean i am fullfilling parental duties? i didnt think so. i'm a horrible father. which is to be expected as it lines up perfectly with everything else. a smaller piece of the same damn thing. (a lifelong walk to the same exact spot(. i made it through the night only because asher and ben came and spent the night with me. warding off worms for those few hours, a soft candelight of their energy sustaining my own- i wouldnt let them leave. i'll fall apart if they leave. i have nothing left. none of my own left in empty space. kinda want to strip off my skin and cut out my organs and leave my mark with my own entrails - strung up into a perfect axiom of the layers of the universe and let that be the last of me.
fish
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Feb. 20th, 2008 @ 02:26 am sick
we watched borat and then i talked to becca for nearly Three Hours. i dont usually talk this much - about anything- but so much has been on my mind and i'm about ready to burst at the seams. poor girl. i had to stop- she had to stop me- because i was talking in circles and not making sense and she probably didnt understand a damn word of it. nobody does, really. i wish i could say that talking it out made me feel better, but it didnt. it might have made it worse. the more i try to wrap words around and rationalize it i realize that it doesn't- it doesn't make me feel better beccause its not rational - it cant be rationalized in terms that make sense to anybody because it is completely backwards and against every rule of this mankind- yknow- the ones we made up. and i'm so fucked because i need to figure out how to survive in a world that doesn't make sense to me.. and i cant do it on all this fucking medication because i cant even... remember what it feels like for things to make sense. anti.psychotic medication does not make the consensus reality any more real- it only strips away the connection and meaning from my own reality. kick my fucking legs out from under me while you're at it- just for the hell of it so i'm left ... stranded in the middle of nowhere without a fucking compass and even if i had one it would be of no use to me because they took away the sun as well. people live their whole damn lives in my situation and blow their head off before they reach 30
and of course its merely coincidental that i have no choice left in the matter.


if they make me take one more fucking haldol pill i'm fucking leaving. whichever way out i can fucking find. no escape.

/fish
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